Wow... Yeah.

So obviously I haven't written in quite some time. Well... Life is good... Yeah... Ups and downs. Well, I'm in footloose which is amazing :) I love it. Sooooo freaking much. I just don't like the fact that because of my body I couldn't get an actual lead. Happiness. It's still fun though! I have the best boyfriend in the world (hahahaha) His name is Bickle. "Me and Bickle made it to like... 9th base last night" hehehehee Got to love rehearsals. He's a great dancer, and the dancing in the show is amazing so I really feel good about it. (Except for the fact that were supposed to be belting while doing insane jazzersize. Yay for kayla starting to sing while on the treadmill!!) I also auditioned for Curtains and Ourtown today. (More just Curtains, and more our town on thursday.) Which was fine, except for the fact that no matter what I sound like, I won't get the part I want because of my body. Lovely. And it's not even a part that requires me to be a mother or anything... It sucks. I feel like singing my heart out to the world...But frankly I storta feel like no one would even care to listen. (Ok...Not no one... Because I know like... 3 people who would..) Anyway, just some self confidence issues with my body. All my life, I've been the perfect size for everything. But now it's a living bell. (with an H) I'm too small. I feel almost invisible. I'm just looked over (literally) because I'm so tiny. Oh, and if anyone says "Your so lucky to have that body! I'm so fat!" I will punch you in the face. Really. lol. I completely understand that everybody has body issues...But as of this year, this is the first time i have EVER resented my size. It's like, when I look in the mirror by myself I feel perfectly fine. I love how i look. Then i stand next to someone and realize how right everyone is. I'm the kid sister. Ok... Sorry, done with my rant now. ANYWAY, so Me and Bonnie went to ask Nick to sadies today... Awkward face. He was soo...Like...FAIL. Hopefully when he gets hanging with me and thad and bonnie he will be more...Happy :) lol. Oh, our sadies day date planning is AMAZINGLY AMAZING. SOOOO FUN! Plus i'm going on a extraordinary date on saturday! Trafalga, carving pumpkins, hot chocolate, movies... *sigh* oh and it's with my cwfb :) Happiness :) Anyway, So...Sorry this whole post is like...Me being gripey about life. Oh well. You don't HAVE to read this you know ;) Bye Yall.